The rat story

Yesterday morning I woke up early so I could catch the manager at this place I've been trying to get a job at. (run on)

So I woke up, got my work out stuff on, and headed to this smoothie place.

When I got there the lady told me what I thought she might say. They weren't even hiring. I had an interview, and things were looking really hopeful, I had been back there three days in a row, checking to see if the hiring manager was in. I felt like I had put so much hope into this one job that when I didn't get it I just got in my car and cried. I have not cried out of sadness since I have been here. I wasn't even sad, I was pissed. I was frustrated in every way possible. I went to the park went for a run and that made me feel better. But I was still mad. All I could think about for the next few hours was how mad I was! I went to another place that had said they were hiring. When I got there I actually met the guy who got my job! I was SO MAD! I got in my car and cried again. I started driving towards the ONE other place in town that I knew was hiring.. Taco Bell. yes I was about to go in there and get an application. But when I got there the line was way too long. I just drove around and drove to school and screamed and cried. I was so frustrated! How hard is it to get a job? How hard is it for God to give me a job? not hard. It's not like I'm looking for some full time position with benefits and a 401k! I'm looking for simple part time jobs. like smoothie king, or atlanta bread company. place's that high schooler's are supposed to be working at.

I got to school and worship started. I was in no mood to worship God, because I was really mad at him. But in the middle of worship the back round singer told this story about an airplane. The pilot was having problems with plane and realized that there was a rat eating at some chords under the plane. He had two options, he could crash land the plane and maybe die. Or fly the plane up even higher and kill the rat. Both were risky. She said "Some of you are focusing on the rat and if you do that you are gonna crash. You need to press in and go higher and look at all the things that God has done for you already" I was like.. oh man she's right.

So I pressed in, I began realizing that I'm here, I'm supposed to be here, and I really didn't have to pay for anything to get here. It was hard, but here I am and I know that this is where I'm supposed to be. I began thanking God for bringing me here and what a blessing my parents have been. I really was able to worship and by the end of it I felt like I was wrapped in his arms and just feeling loved. It was great because I really miss my parents and it felt like one of them was just hugging and making me feel peaceful. Worship ended and I realized that I really don't care if I don't get a job. God is going to provide, how he's going to do that I don't know. But he will.

When I got out of school I had a missed call from a Redding number I didn't know. It was a lady who had been referred to me by my mom's friend and she wanted me to do some part time nannying for her! I called her and the hours she wanted couldn't have been more perfect! I was so amazed that as soon as I had a break through in the spirit there was a break through in my real life! 

I could have moved here and easily just have gotten a job. But instead God chose to make me wait so that I could have the perfect job, and it wasn't me, it was him. It was like a gift to me. 

All the time here has been stretching me so much, and I finally feel like the stress about money, and work is over. Because I know that even if I have to wait, whatever God has for me is WAY better than what I try to do for myself.