Planets aligning, or a full moon,
or some kind of movement of true north.
The kind of day I'm having is a kind of day I've had before.
There is something in me that is attracting other bodies.
If I am not running into someone
I am moving and end up in their way.
I feel like I'm in a dream.
It's like there's some kind of magnetic pull towards me.
But not the kind of pull I want.
It's making me go crazy. Going home makes it worse.
Thank God for Evan, he left fresh and frozen fruit and spinach at my house.
Praise the Lord I won't be eating ramen noodles!
I'm waiting for Erin so we can look at apartments..
I'm sitting in the only one of a kind cafe they have in Redding.
Yaks. yeah the messed up on the name.
But everything seems to be in place. miss matched tables and chairs, warm and unique tones on the walls. Some local artists paintings are hanging up and they are playing Nick Drake. Yep everything seems to be in place. But there is something VERY out of place..
The people.
There's a woman with an awful hair dye job interviewing a very frail man with.. is that grey hair? I can't tell. It's looks like dirty straw. His skin is like leather. She is interviewing him for a job taking care of someone with a mental disability. I can feel the awkwardness from here. It's thick.
I've realized that I dress myself according to my mood.
When I feel pretty I dress pretty.
Today I feel like a walking accident!
So I'm wearing a mismatched clashing outfit of stretch pants.
a white V-neck with a ironed on picture of Gabe Venezuala and a Navy blue cardigan.
I'm hoping that it will keep people from bumping into me.
I need to spend some time alone with God tonight.
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